Over a period of thirteen years I've had the privilege of working on various artistic projects across many mediums. I began my work as an artist through photography and then moved into videography once I began creating content for YouTube. After graduating from high school I shifted my focus to film editing and visual effects but soon there after found my way back to photography as I began to pursue art as my full time career.
In 2016 I unfortunately lost much of my early photography due to a fire that claimed my home. Below you'll find what I've been able to archive so far in regards to my work both in photography and videography. This will constantly be updated as I create and begin new projects however you will only find my visual effects work in my show reel which is available through the home page of my website.
Eroticism is always viewed from a very serious lens and I wanted to incorporate elements of eroticism into a photo shoot that perhaps didn't take itself so seriously. My "WET" photo series is an attempt at doing that sort of photo shoot through my own signature style of photography. For me, the most erotic moments in photography are the moments where a model leans into their physical form and accepts their own beauty at face value. There's something really exciting about photographing someone is having them look back at the raw images and gain a confidence boost from how they're framed and how they look. It's always my top priority to help anyone I'm photographing feel confident and attractive behind the lens.
The more photos we took in this session, the more each model became comfortable with the camera and explored with different poses. It was so fun taking these shots with such a close group of people who are all into the same thing. It created a great atmosphere in which everyone could be themselves and feel comfortable and confident at the same time and I think that's what made each photo so much better than the rest.
Before getting into visual effects I was in school for general films studies and fell across a program called "Terragen". This tool was something used in video games and visual effects to generate procedural generated landscapes and planets to be used in animation or to be integrated into visual effects.
I was enamoured by the beautiful sunsets and landscapes I could use it to create. I eventually experimented with testing the limits of the software creating glass landscapes and soupy oceans of pink goo. I never had the most powerful computer but the results of most of my work within this program were *just* satisfactory for me.
Eventually I gave up on trying to create anything further with this project because render times took so long and I never ended up having the hardware to do much else besides these few images I created, but they're visually interesting and beautiful expressions of places I kept within my own mind and it felt important I showcase them.
As a queer teenager I was hanging on the words of the pop stars who had their come up during my own come up. Pop music has been a central part of my life as it has always managed to bring me so much happiness and freedom of expression through living vicariously inside of the worlds these women would create. I would listen to these albums on repeat and create concepts for music videos in my head, I would draw them out, story board them, just to have the concepts on paper.
As I began film school I started experimenting to editing preexisting videos to music, remixing them sort of. Cocorosetta is compilation of Sevdaliza music videos edited together that was one of many video works projected on a wall at a house party I attended in college. Each film student brought their own project and this was mine.
Through this project I learned to have both an ear and eye for editing videos to music, and have since incorporated this editing style into music video projects I have since picked up and began working on.
I've always clawed my way towards having a stronger sense of self, I feel that perhaps when I was a younger teenager I let the opportunity to define myself slip through my fingers like sand. I wanted to be so many things at once and didn't want to pick one thing, for fear it would make me seem less than everything else I wanted to be. Perhaps it's because I had no idea what I wanted back then or maybe it was just an excuse not to choose.
I've been photographing myself through the years as my sense of self evolved, I've created sometimes portraits that were more artist, sometimes they were just simple, but one thing held true throughout all these different stages; the artistic thread that weaves through all my work comes from a place of purposeful and methodical emotional exertion.
Late at night I'd be alone in my thoughts, desperately looking for a way to escape and I would break out my camera, put together a concept and create art through portrait photography. It took me to fantasy world, a place that I wanted to live, a time that I wish I had already been in. I dreamt about a peaceful life, one where I could express myself in day to day life rather than just in a moment in time within a photograph. While looking in these photos may seem vain, or silly, but to me they are the foundation that kept me afloat in some of the worst years of my life.
An Alien Feeling (2015)
The clouds over the mountains dance and sway in slow motion casting a shadow over the city below. I watch as the shadows move across the roofs, streets, parks, and buildings of this great metropolis. The sun's rays are blocked by dark cloud banks that roll slowly across the sky. A cool breeze ruffled my hair while the heat from the summer day still lingered on the pavement below.
While not in nature, I spent my days watching the mountains dreaming of those long forgotten times when the wind blew freely through tall pines and the birds sang to me from above their nests high in the trees. I thought of the mountains with a longing for them that was more than just physical. My soul yearned for the peace and solitude they provided. I wanted so much to be back there again but knew that it was beyond my reach no matter how hard I tried to return, it wasn't my home anymore.
I created this short time lapse on one of my more melancholy days spent in this city. I had been feeling so alone and lost after just freshly uprooting my life and moving across the entire country. I spent a lot of my time sitting on this balcony, crying, in deep thought, writing, playing music and the only thing that felt familiar to me was so far in the distance, but still stood tall above the city that made me feel so small and insignificant. The thing that I found home in, was bigger than the thing I was the most afraid of and that metaphorically was comforting for me.
Accompanied by the beautiful visuals that take me back to some of the first moments I spent truly alone, truly on my own, is the poetry piece "Lost Girls" by Cocorosie.